To the people who since day 1 have figured out what their life goal is, my hat is off to you. I wish it was that easy for me, to just pick and choose the exact course of action I should go with. But I can’t, to me I want to see everything, explore everything, I love learning as much as I can about subjects that interest me. So, I struggle with choosing just one path on which to travel, if I could, I think I’d like to travel them all.
I can’t think of how many majors or career paths I have chosen that later I changed. It all started out when I began in University, after graduating from high school, where I thought I would study Biochemistry, boy was I completely wrong on that one. In high school, sure I was “smart.” But not like this, my mind was completely blown away with how much actual work University would take. I didn’t study enough at all, I barely wanted to do the school work. Also, combined with the fact that I had never actually studied Biology before. You dissect rats. Need I say more about that one. So as you can tell my first semester of University didn’t go so well. I struggled completely.
My next semester was a little more successful, I started studying towards a Business degree, which wasn’t so horrible, yes I did learn that I need to actually study and spend time at school. So, I studied economics and business, not too shabby. I thought I was on the up at that point, decision made and well that was going to be it. Oh buddy was I wrong.
I started the next semester still on the decision of doing Business, which was full of interesting things to study but I guess I just wasn’t interested. So, I decided to switch it up again, are we up to 3 changes now? I decided to study Political science in the next semester, my thought process was well I enjoy politics but I just didn’t want a degree in it.
Then the next year was horrible, a complete fail when it came to education and work to be honest. I started again in with Business, not really sure why but I did. It didn’t work out, exactly like the first time. Then I took just a bunch of random courses for the next semester, not sure what to do. Which was horrible. I ended up failing 2 courses that semester. While that whole year I went trying to find some form of work and that didn’t really measure out for me. That year was a complete bust for everything. But we move on and we let it go, not everything is going to work out as magical as we plan for it too.
So, we start in on our 4th year at University, it’s been three weeks in, I have decided this term that I will only take 3 courses, which is still a full time student where I attend school. I have decided on taking a communications course, which I am completely enjoying so far into this term. But I am not going to completely throw myself into this because I feel like if I do then well I might just quit again. And I’m completely tired of quitting school. I have learned that all I need to do is just study. But you will be glad to know that I actually spent about 6 hours studying and reading today.
I’m hoping for the best with this semester, I’m trying to not put as much pressure on myself to figure out the details. I’m just going to try and go with the flow. Work hard and let the details fall into place.
This post was more about venting and explaining myself, thanks so much for listening, hope you enjoyed my complicated school history. I know all about the ups and downs of education but remember that this is a choice, going to school is your choice, you pay for it, so you might as well try your best.
Thanks so much xx
Jennie
