2013 summed up

2013, summed up in words, I would say changing, growing. 

If someone would have told me that a year from now you are going to be on the path to finishing a degree that you actually love, that you are going to feel way more confident in who you are and what you want I probably wouldn’t have believed you.

2013 was filled with ups and downs but in the past 4 months through the day to day struggle it’s finally been on an upward swing. Where I’m loving school finally and work and friends are going good as well. I guess you can say that during the summer of 2013 I was a little down and out, felt like I didn’t have anywhere to go, like I was standing still and everyone I knew was moving forward somehow. But that was a rut, a place which I needed to get out of, so I searched within myself and just started trying to answer the simple questions, what do you like? How simple is that question, what do you like? At first I did not know the answers but it started sort of piecing itself together during this year. Ask me now what I like and I just don’t know where to start, which subject area do you mean. I have fallen back in love with fashion, which for the longest amount of time never thought I could because of something holding me back (more in another blog post later when I’m ready to discuss.) I love make up, how girly and simple is that, I really like fashion and make up, you probably think what girl doesn’t, well many don’t but to me it’s not just about a new shirt or anything I spend hours looking at blogs that are purely fashion blogs and then spend hours on beauty blogs to try and find out new tips or even the lastest make up that someone is loving. At the beginning of this year I wore the exact same type of foundation that I had been wearing since I was in high school, I hadn’t changed. Now I’ve been through 3 different types and I’m still searching for the best one, the one I use now doesn’t give me the coverage I want, I digress. Besides just this my music taste has become more vast and more accepting of different types of music. Favorite artist this year would probably be Ellie Goulding, I love her album Halycon Days, absolutely brilliant. 

But for 2014 it will be different again, more in-depth with my schooling, but at the same time I’m still seeking change. I would love to dye my hair, something I’ve always wanted to do and maybe I will this year, maybe, such a commitment (haha). 2014 will be another for the books, since I have a lot planned this year I hope that you would like to follow along, I’m not going to tell you about what’s going to happen to the blog but some things will definitely be changing.

Lots of love

Jennie

Merry Christmas :)

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

I hope that everyone is having an amazing time off from school and work! Tis the season right? I hope that you all had a great day with family and friends! 

I am having a good day just hanging out with my family, we just finished Christmas Dinner and it was absolutely delicious! Great, amazing food and even better company!

To me christmas is not about the gifts or presents you receive, it’s about the time you get to spend with the ones that you love. Even if it’s just a dinner with your family, or a little pot luck with some of your best friends, that’s what Christmas means to me.

Mind you I did receive some beautiful gifts from my family and friends, and I am very thankful for what they got me! But I am more thankful for the time I get to spend with them! Even if just a casual movie night with my family.

I actually celebrated Christmas twice this year, the first time when my brother arrived home and I got to open up his amazing gift (he knows what I like.) Then I had another Christmas which was today with just my mom and dad. All in all Christmas feels like about 2 weeks long which I am not complaining about. Lounging in comfy sweaters and slippers is not something I’m going to argue against!

I hope your Christmas is as cozy as mine has been! 

Lots of love

Jennie

Grades have been released...

… and the results are in, and the worry became a little too much for me to handle. Even though I thought I had achieved the grades I wanted this semester, I was still very nervous to even look at them.

Grades from my school are posted at 5 o’clock pm, I was at work till 6, so thinking to myself, I thought, well you can go check them once you are off. 6 comes and goes and I still don’t check my grades, 7 comes and goes just as quickly, then 8, finally at 9, I had to check, my anxiety was so high that I couldn’t even click on the post to check. I logged into the account and knew that they were posted, so what was I to do, I couldn’t stomach doing it myself so I had to call my mom to come do it. 

Let’s just all think about this, I am in my 4th year of university, 21 years old and I was too nervous to check my grades, I. Had. To. Get. My. Mother. To. Check. My. Grades. Think about that for a second, I’d like to think of myself as pretty self sufficient, mind you I am not as much as other people are but I was so stressed out about my grades that I couldn’t look at them myself. 

You probably think why were you so worried about them, well you see there were two reasons. First, I was doing very poorly in school for a long time and if I didn’t receive the grades I needed then I might not have been able to go to school for a while. Second, these grades were the base of what will be my degree, with these grades it meant that an amazing opportunity could open up for me, if I achieved the right grades. So as you can see there was a lot riding on these grades. 

But I am thankful and grateful for being able to say that I have done pretty amazing if I do say so myself with my grades. I have done better then I thought I would have, which makes me feel amazing.

My biggest message from this year and this semester especially is that if you work hard for the things you want then you can achieve them. No, I don’t mean sit on your ass and expect others to do it for you. YOU, yourself have to do it, no one else would. So, work hard and you will see results.

I hope everyone had a great semester and enjoy the break, take this time out to see your family and friends while you can before the next one starts. Happy holidays! xx

Thanks

Jennie

Semester Update: Overdue

Well, the semester has ended, and let me tell you it has been a whirlwind. I honestly don’t think I have stopped being busy and on the go since midterm break (also known as reading week but my school doesn’t do a week, just a tiny break around thanksgiving.) 

Since then if I wasn’t doing school or homework then I would be working. Which is necessary for a couple of reasons, well Christmas is coming upon us, where thankfully I bought  everyone’s gifts already. But another little thing that I am very excited about is that in February I will be visiting my older brother with my mom, we will be gone for about a week. Which obviously I need money for, but I am super excited about it! 

But back to school, I have completed this semester just waiting on the grades to be released, I am quite nervous when it comes to the grades situation but I think I did alright, but we will see how everything goes. The grades will be posted on the 23rd of december which might make christmas a little sad but I will survive. I am hoping for the best. 

This semester has been the best in figuring out the future. When I started this blog I was very undetermined when it came to school, I had no idea what I wanted to do, but for the first time everything I was doing in school became interesting. For the first time I could see the path that I wanted to head down. I know that it  will be very tough to do what I want to do, but for the first time I’m not scared in trying to go on this path. I have a supportive family and friends who will support me till the end of time. I am forever grateful.

I guess this is me saying that this year was a move forward, forward for me making decisions for the future, I guess it was about time since I am 21 this year. But I am happy for the decisions I have made. And next year will be even more hectic but completely worth it! I will have to let you know how the grades situation went when they get posted but as for now I think 2013 was a good year! More to come soon lovelies, my apologizes for being all over the place! 

Thanks 

Jennie