Grades have been released...

… and the results are in, and the worry became a little too much for me to handle. Even though I thought I had achieved the grades I wanted this semester, I was still very nervous to even look at them.

Grades from my school are posted at 5 o’clock pm, I was at work till 6, so thinking to myself, I thought, well you can go check them once you are off. 6 comes and goes and I still don’t check my grades, 7 comes and goes just as quickly, then 8, finally at 9, I had to check, my anxiety was so high that I couldn’t even click on the post to check. I logged into the account and knew that they were posted, so what was I to do, I couldn’t stomach doing it myself so I had to call my mom to come do it. 

Let’s just all think about this, I am in my 4th year of university, 21 years old and I was too nervous to check my grades, I. Had. To. Get. My. Mother. To. Check. My. Grades. Think about that for a second, I’d like to think of myself as pretty self sufficient, mind you I am not as much as other people are but I was so stressed out about my grades that I couldn’t look at them myself. 

You probably think why were you so worried about them, well you see there were two reasons. First, I was doing very poorly in school for a long time and if I didn’t receive the grades I needed then I might not have been able to go to school for a while. Second, these grades were the base of what will be my degree, with these grades it meant that an amazing opportunity could open up for me, if I achieved the right grades. So as you can see there was a lot riding on these grades. 

But I am thankful and grateful for being able to say that I have done pretty amazing if I do say so myself with my grades. I have done better then I thought I would have, which makes me feel amazing.

My biggest message from this year and this semester especially is that if you work hard for the things you want then you can achieve them. No, I don’t mean sit on your ass and expect others to do it for you. YOU, yourself have to do it, no one else would. So, work hard and you will see results.

I hope everyone had a great semester and enjoy the break, take this time out to see your family and friends while you can before the next one starts. Happy holidays! xx

Thanks

Jennie